I still...

I’ve written it many different ways before
I heard myself screaming your name some more
I hate you! I love you! I miss you! I need you!
I can’t seem to get over you!
I died with every moment I reminisced what once was.
The same memory is what I need to live by.
I thought I was weak for crying…
But not drowning in my own tears made me strong.
No matter how much my heart breaks
I still believe that love will come home to me someday.
But loving you and loving me doesn’t seem to work
It’s like the same poison that killed Juliet
Her love was never given a chance to grow
Or did she try to move on?
I am not Juliet and you are not my Romeo.
This selfish love needs to go.
Is it my fault that I can’t get over you?
Is it his fault that he can never be you?
Is it your fault that I fell in with love you?
But it’s your fault that you decided to stray from US.
From the very thing I thought was good enough
I gave you the very best of me
I guess I drowned you with love and sincerity
I've wasted thousands of kisses on your lips
Threw away my dreams of being happy
You almost made me hate love
But love was patient with me…
Until my heart decides to break away from you
Until then…I’ll dedicate these words to you.

Posted 11/21/08