A Penny For Your Thoughts?

What do you say when you hear a heart out of control?
What are the right words to connect to I love you so?
How important is time other than to recount moments with you?
For the days, months and years did not erase the memory of you…
What benefit does light have if darkness hid tears well from you?
What does it makes of you if loving you is all I do?
And what came upon me that compelled me to give my all to you?

What is love if love breaks hearts?
What is a heart without beating for love?
What is relationship if you can’t relate?
What is beauty if lies are what they only seek?
What is judgment if he who can opt out from making it?

What is pride if nothing really matters anymore?
What is ego without bruising another soul?
What is reality if in our dreams we are better off?

What are answers if it leaves questions unresolved?
What is forever if no one lives long enough to know?
And what questions do you have after reading my thoughts?

Saturday - my 2 hours moment...

Hello Readers and Stalkers alike :P

So it's another Saturday,).

The Dj on the radio inspires my soul. His playlist inspires my body to feel certain type of ways that I need to just write...I love writing blogs as much as I love poetry. It runs in my body like an electric circuits and it is sometimes out of control.

I have more written works that could make you go crazy and will make you get at your lover :) But for now let's keep it soft...and soon time...I will hit you guys with something hard core ;)

At Last

Never knew I could feel this way
The kind that makes you just dance and sway
Never thought it’s possible to fall so fast
To feel that this might just last
To hear you say “I love you”
And I say it right back
To engrave your name in my heart

You managed to break down my wall
From the beginning I see no end to it all
We are beyond the physical
Equally you inspire my mind
I admire your dedication
I trust that you will protect my heart
I see it in your eyes
And all of the things you do
If only you could see
The kind of empire we could be

Promises are meant to be broken
So I guarantee my love is true
The intensity from the day we met
No one can compare to you

You’re the fire that ignites my body
Like a lighter to a half lit spliff
Craving your skin
Haunted by your touch
Enveloped by your scent
Savoring you inch by inch
Fever like symptoms
Travels down my body
When you slide inside of me

Your lips are so deadly
I die with every kiss
Your caress resurrects me
Each stroke takes me back in that zone
And I willingly lose control
Quivering...
Inhaling…
Exhaling…
As you reside inside me…
I asked God could this really be?
At last my man found me.

Are You Jealous?

Are You Jealous?
We've all felt that feeling when something in our gut is doing some major twist. You know that feeling...oh I KNOW that feeling too well. Some call it INSECURITY and well most of the public call it JEALOUSY.

But did we ever ask the question of the "jealous" if they like how they feel? Ask yourself that same question...DO YOU LIKE HOW IT FEELS WHEN YOU FEEL JEALOUS? As for myself I don't like how it feels. That's why I never liked falling in-love because jealousy find its way in the little cracks and before you know it I'm saying goodbye to love. But from someone who is well familiar with that feeling...let me tell you... IT DOES NOT FEEL GOOD AT ALL. If I can have my way I would rather not feel it. It feels like the world reversed and you can hear every word, replays every scene that leads to your doubts...and you try to push aside the questions floating. My heart feels like a thousand needles attacked it. I try my best to hold it together and be calm. Remembering the line that "love is not jealous" only to want to hate the initial reason why I am jealous...because I am in-love. But I choose love because it's the worst thing to hate...and as a mature person I try to get to the bottom of it. That's a huge change from how I used to just leave love because it scared my heart from breaking. But how ironic is that when leaving does exactly what I was scared of...breaking my heart.

So when someone that loves you get jealous...when they confide in you instead of jumping to conclusion, please give them that little chance to just talk and assure them that the fear is nothing. Do not yell or get mad or think that they enjoy feeling the way that they do.

When you fall in-love and open your vulnerability, emotions over power logic at times. And it takes a lot of emotions to talk about it because most of us are afraid that it would make the one they love angry or leave. But is it better to keep doubts collected in our chest until it explodes?

Communication is so crucial in relationships that if we don't talk things out...how are we to resolve the problem? How does a relationship survive based on confirming to what is ONLY acceptable for the sake of avoiding arguments?

I need resolutions to move forward and the only way to do that is to communicate. I’ve experienced and heard of relationships that has an obsolete communication. Who has time to play the game of "If you don't know by now I won't tell you"? Not even psychics can predict their own relationships. Just like a Doctor could never heal themselves, two is always better than one. It takes two to be in a relationship and it takes two to argue. It only makes sense that the two involved agree to find a resolution to the current situation.

I promised myself that I will always discuss how I feel with my man because I know how horrible the guessing game can be. When you don't know where you stand, or if you are being taken for a fool and/or for granted. But of course the "jealous" person should always step back at the situation before taking off with that flight to Q&A's. But what questions are alright to ask without it coming out as an “accusation”?

There are times when you know something just ain't right and most women regardless of the sign stays. I am not new to the game. I've had games and been played BUT I never stay long enough to get branded "blinded by love". As much as I love falling in-love or hate the rollercoaster of being in love...I would never lower myself respect to stay with someone who does not respect me and my feelings. I know that I can love a man...I know I can treat him right...but once I feel that tug best believe that I will speak my mind. If I cannot communicate how I feel with my man, how are we going to survive?

The weekend of valentines either solidifies, breaks, mends or brings hearts together. Some of us already had updated our circle of friends on how the VDAY went. Some vented, some are very boastful, some just enjoyed listening to stories, and some just ignored the topic all together. But regardless of the outcome...I think Valentines Day is about being with someone that makes you feel good, safe and loved.

I guess the hardest part of falling is when you fell so hard that you can't control your emotions and you feel like floating...and all you need is for your man or woman to hold your hands and tell you that you are on solid grounds.

Until next time...SABROSITANESS.

Happily Ever After - Does it exist?

Hello Readers...here I am as promised...to blog about the email forward with the pictures of Disney's leading ladies. It is very interesting since at the end of each movie comes "Happily Ever After". But do we really know what leads to "Happily Ever After"? Does it even exist? Is there such a thing as a Prince or King? Or is it just a silly little girl's dream to believe that her Prince existed?

Relationship ideology differs between genders. It is a fact! HOWEVER...I think it is categorized in two, the GIVER and the TAKER. There will always be the one in a relationship that tends to give more and the other that just takes and takes and takes...and takes things for granted. Harsh?

In search of love we all fall victim to our own biggest fear. The heart break! There's no cure but can be pushed all the way to the back burner until something similar comes to remind us what we hate the most. Falling in love always brings our weakness. What I don't understand is when we bitch and complain about not having someone who cares...why do we push away those who genuinely wants the best for us? Why does love hurt when love is supposed to be the best feeling to take refuge in our hearts?

I watch old couples walk hand in hand. You could still see the love in their eyes. And I wonder what is the secret to making it last? How much give and take do I need to have to reach that level?

I am not foreign to heart aches. I almost gave up on love because I thought it is completely ridiculous to love someone so much when that person doesn't give a fuck if they hurt your feelings or not. Call me old school but I love romance and passion and having a cold partner doesn’t cut it. If you don't want to be in a relationship why stay? Why make that person feel that you are on the same level? When all you really want is a warm body every other night? There are escorts for you people out there who just can't understand the magic in existing in another's heart.

Valentines Day...my favorite time of the year. Single or with someone I still enjoy it. Mind you this is the time of the year that couples are either upgrading their bond or breaking it. For you hopeless romantic out there, I do hope that you get what you deserved and for the single ladies (and men) enjoy yourselves...there's tons of single events out there. A very dear friend of mine is hosting a single ladies night and let me tell you I am sure some of the ladies will not go home alone ;). So don't lose hope and don't settle for someone who will just let the V-day fly by without making it special. The only difference between a friend and a boyfriend is that intimacy, the connection that only the two of you have. Let's be real...no one dies from a broken heart...if your partner isn't treating you right...get out before you forget yourself worth. I read somewhere that there's TONS of fishies in the sea ;)

25 Years and more...how do they do it? Another dear friend of mine came to visit last night with my cousin and we talked about relationship over dinner. He has been with his partner for a verrrrry long time. And I asked him how did he do it? Trying to understand the other person and from trying to make sure you are not being taken for a fool is worst than figuring out excel formulas. He said that "relationship is hard work...you have to let your pride down". PRIDE...how does one let go of what most is so important to us? When to know when to say "sorry" and to forgive and forget? How does it work? Do we apologize for something that we didn't do just to make mends? Do we become foolish? Or do we take our ego and find another home for our heart?

For those who know me would back me up when I say I have a very strong personality. I know when I am wrong and when I am right. I will not be taken for a fool...not then and not for LOVE. If falling in love means that I have to take the blame even if I didn't do wrong, if loving someone means having to feel hurt at the end of the day, if loving someone means I lower myself worth...well then LOVE can find his own victim somewhere else.

It took a very long time for me to let my guards down. To let another take hold of my heart and it is a scary feeling. Especially when we are going 100mph...and there's no insurance. It feels good to be in a relationship and knowing that you got another person that wants the best for you. But for the sake of love...how much should one give up? Relationships are like careers...there's the 3 month probationary period. But how many gets the benefits cards? How many proves their worthy of ones heart to sign on permanent bonafide relationship?

Arguments in a relationship is inevitable...two people...two minds...two opinions. But if the two are grown folks should they not know what is right and what is wrong? Is it fair to take out your anger and frustration on your partner? I always thought the first 3 months are supposed to be the best times. Going out to places you both have never seen...doing sweet little nothings and spending as much time to know the person. Do you even know each others last name? Nicknames? Favorite color? Songs? Do you even know what makes each other smile? I was once told by this lady who spent most of her life with her husband of 50 years..."before Carl passed away...not a day went by that he didn't make me feel love...we argue but we always know that at the end of the day we love each other and learn to apologize and accept each other's flaws. It takes a whole lifetime to get to know each other...and if it's true love...you will know because you are home in his eyes". It only made me sigh to hear her talk about the things he did for her and the things she did to make sure he is okay. She gives me hope that love is out there for me...whether or not I will deserve finding it is another blog. Maybe romance is a thing to read off of novels...but I still believe that when you love someone...you don't do anything to deliberately hurt them.